Dear Biofit,
I'm not quite sure how to start this letter to you, perhaps a compliment is therefore best. You, Biofit, are the most comfortable bra I have ever worn in my life. You fit my body perfectly, never leaving marks on my skin or irritating it like other bras that I've worn before you have. You are smooth and I love how I can wear you for hours on end and be completely comfortable.
But Biofit, you are also bad for me. Despite the fact that you were on sale (always a good deal in my book), and are the most comfortable thing ever, you have corrupted me. You have made it impossible for me to wear other bras.
Because Biofit, you are a push up bra.
A long time ago, Biofit, I owned some sisters of yours. They weren't as comfortable, but they were still push-up bras. You see, I am a small person, and I was not blessed with much of anything up top. So in my younger days, I was insecure; weren't we all when we were in high school? So when I purchased a dress that required me to wear more than a regular bra, I bought a push up bra. And then I couldn't stop wearing it. I bought more. And it became the bra I wore on a regular basis. Suddenly, I didn't feel as abnormal. Boys might actually notice me and find me pretty, oh wait, no, my acne was still too bad for that.
You see how messed up that was, Biofit?
After a while, I got tired of the bras, but I didn't want to stop wearing them, for fear that people would notice that all of the sudden I'd shrunk. But when I got to college, things changed. Here I was in a place where no one else had previously known me. I could wear a normal bra, and no one would be any wiser.
So I did, and it was liberating.
Sure, I looked smaller, but it was okay because no one knew what I had previously looked like. They couldn't sit there an judge me, and laugh that I had tried to make myself look like something I wasn't and failed. I became more comfortable with myself, and was starting to be able to love myself for who I was, and not who I was pretending to be.
Things in my life changed. I stopped taking medication that suppressed my appetite, I was dating a former football player, consequently I was exposed to more food and was eating more, and I gained weight, which at that point in my life was still an exciting thing. Suddenly, I had cleavage. It was amazing, and I had confidence.
Then, Biofit, the Semi-Annual Sale came along and I found you.
It started out innocent enough. I liked how you made me look, so I purchased you. I rotated you out with other regular bras, but then I realized how much more comfortable I was when I wore you, not just in looks but in general physical comfort as well. I felt great.
Then, things changed again, and not for the better.
I lost weight, and with it, my extra cleavage, and now, Biofit, I find myself in the exact same predicament that I was in while in high school. Once more I'm attached to wearing push-up bras, and don't feel comfortable wearing a regular bra. I feel too small, and not good enough. Biofit, you have warped my body image. I remember when I started taking dance classes again, I changed in the bathroom, and I looked at myself in the mirror, wearing a sports bra, tights and a tank top and I said to myself "I'm so small." I felt so tiny, so skinny, so unhealthy. And I thought this isn't good, this isn't right, I shouldn't feel this way about myself.
And then I think, how many other people feel the same way?
What has our culture done to us?
Why can't I, and others like myself, love ourselves for who we are, why do we have to depend on things like you Biofit? Why do we have to spend thousands on plastic surgery, laser hair removal, and expensive medications to make us look like movie stars. Why do we want to look like movie stars?
Biofit, I wish I knew how to quit you.
